Time

Daylight Savings Time. Just another reminder that I live in the moment. Another clue that I have little that marks time. Everyday is basically the same on the macro level. To me, time is probably as irrelevant as it could be to a person.

I’m not sure I would have caught the switch to DST until, perhaps, when I greeted the nurse the following evening. Surely the daylight would have caught my attention. Then again, maybe not.

It’s not like before, when I had to go around and set all the clocks manually. For us, they just do it on their own.

You know how I learned of the time change? Exactly two hours before it became official the nurse brought it up. Really, it took me a good fifteen minutes to accept that this is true.

I think about my “past life”. A life that had so many events that marked time. There were Tuesday staff meetings, monthly Board meetings, weekends off, my exercise ritual, summer vacations, and so on. Now, days run into each other and smear together. It’s like a jigsaw puzzle dumped in a heap on the table. You recognize some of the pieces and have a rough idea where they fit… if you ever decided to put it together.

For me, days, weeks, and months are indistinguishable. One-in-the-same in some sort of freakish, earthly hell. Seasons come and go hardly without notice. Months marking the anniversary of Ryan’s beating come, smack me down, and leave. I see them coming, but once done they fade quickly.

Yep. I live in the moment. It’s how I cope. Never look back. Never anticipate. Here and now… always here and now.

 

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13 Responses to Time

  1. Jo Hobbs says:

    Heartfelt words from a dad with a purpose, and that is taking care of his son in the progression to wellness. We are here for you, Ken, day after day after day. I will write more when I can see the screen and keyboard… …

  2. Paula says:

    My heart is with you — in the sunrise and in the sunset and in all that is in between — my heart is with you and your family. Wishing you a positive day with rays of light that filter through the storm. You are a very strong man, and a tremendous husband and Dad. There is no greater success. Always here, always praying. Love, Paula

  3. Michelle Miltz says:

    Ken,
    Although I am just a person who follows your story after seeing it on the tv, I do feel so much for your and your family as you move through these days (and nights). Your life has a great purpose, and God will be with you through it. I appreciate that you write about your feelings as your emotions are felt by those who read it, and maybe this helps is some way for you. I wish you all the best and am amazed at your love and strength for Ryan. Your passion and energy is definitely felt by him. It does not go unnoticed.

    Michelle

  4. Leesa Modesitt says:

    You are indeed one of the most amazing people I have ever known of. If everyone on this earth had a fraction of your moral fiber and strength, oh what a world we would live in! You are amazing and your family, especially dear sweet Ryan, is so lucky to have you. Never doubt the work you do because trust me, very few people could do what you do on a daily basis. Tho I do not know you in person, I am a proud person to know you from seeing you on tv and becoming part of ur online family. My prayers are with you and your beautiful family every day as you go thru this struggle and share it with all of us and I look forward to seeing all of the progress that Ryan is making and will continue to make. God bless each and every one of you! You are loved! ❤

  5. Anna says:

    Ken, What an amazing writer you are! This post captures me in the moment of reading it, taking me away to a place that calls me to continue to read and find the end of the story; and just like you at the end I am smacked down realizing I am reading about my son’s good friend Ryan Diviney. Your book, when you complete it, will be a New York’s Best Seller for many weeks. This “story” could be any of us, but your writing and “storytelling” make it compelling reading.

  6. Gail Doyle says:

    Dear Ken After seeing you and your family on tv months ago ,My heart and thoughts go out to you all….You are truly an amazing and selfless and devoted father and Ryan is blessed that you are his Dad. I read all your posts every day and give you such credit for being the person you are …Your reward and knowing what day it is ….will come when that beautiful son of yours is healed …Meantime. We ‘re all here for you and sending many prayers and blessings …..Feel like I’ve known you all for so long ,thanks to your posts. SHSP. Gail

  7. Susanne says:

    I just finished reading the book Heaven is Real, the true story of heaven told through the eyes of a four-year-old boy who had an out of body/death experience during surgery. One of the many things he shared was that the Holy Spirit “shoots down prayers” on people when we pray for them. On this journey I pray that you are pierced by the hundreds of prayers offered daily for your amazing family. The room is filled with the light of your halos as your love pours out for Ryan and each other. You are living “in the moment,” exactly as God wants you to. He’s leading and you’re offering yourself, faithful servant. Time has given you months with your precious son.

    • Jo Hobbs says:

      And God has given us all these many months of Time with Ryan, his family and one another, all members of Team Diviney. Thank you, God, for Your continual healing of Ryan. We sing Your praises! Amen.

  8. Jo Hobbs says:

    This blog has been viewed 648 Times in 4 hours and 11 minutes. Unbelievable! We care, Divineys!! We’re with you!

  9. sallly ellis says:

    Thank you for sharing, I love your honesty. Still here and sending strong thoughts your way.

  10. The Colangelis says:

    Ken, I can only imagine how tough each day is as you work with Ryan and wait for him to heal. God is with you. This blog and all the people that follow it are a sign of God’s work. Many prayers are offered by the large Team Diviney following. You are dedicated to do what it takes and the Team is not giving up either. We will continue praying for Ryan and you. Though you sound a little down today, we look forward to your upbeat columns as we check-in to read each day. God bless you and, and in addition to Ryan, take of yourself too.

  11. Lori Beebe says:

    Ken – I haven’t written in a while but have been thinking of Ryan and praying for all of you every day. Bill & I were at WVU a couple weekends ago for Charlie’s birthday with Charlie, Derris, Jon, Brian and all the girls. I thought of Ryan so many times while we were there and his friends miss him so much. They will never stop missing him and praying for his recovery and for their dear friend to be back with them. I missed seeing Kari by a few minutes – she arrived to the party just after we left. It sounds like she is doing well and is such a bright spot for the kids that know Ryan so well there. She is probably as much support for them as they are for her. All of our continued love & prayers to you all daily. Thank you for your posts. SHSP ~ The Beebes ~ xoxo

  12. Keith says:

    Ken
    I agree you write great things on here. And to just drop everything that you did in the past and took on taking care of Ryan that shows Love For Your Family. I think its amazing what all you do to help Ryan and alot of the time you know more than the Drs. So Continue to do the Great Things that You Do. Prayers Continue for Ryan and The Family!

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